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xoxo

4 way stop

I can only hope
that the way to freedom
and the
breaking
of
bad
habits
is through careful consideration
of
each
and
every
decision,
great or small,
and overanalysis
of
conversations,
but as I type this
I'm thinking
that
I
could
be
wrong.

random

Funny to think about
how life changes direction
with
one ring
one click
one glance.
attempting a return
to pre-ring
pre-click
pre-glance
is futile.
Makes you wonder
who is really
in charge of
ringclickglanceness.

lecture.

yeah face the black
just look at it
for what it is
your
weakness,
failings,
continuous blunders
(no that implies an accident.)
in your inactivity
you perpetuate all the things
you hate about yourself
yet still you sit
and write about it
instead.
don't you know
that you can make yourself happy
you know.
you've always known.
you had an excuse before
(not the real reason
but the excuse)
so now
what will you use?
for once
beth
stop trying
and
do.
because really
if you know what to do to be happy
but choose not to
then
You
are what you've been fighting against
all along.

brain ejection

And the
cage
protects you.
Don't forget.
Who needs
a
broken heart?
Not you.
Don't forget.
You are fine
on your own,
even if life is better
with him.
Don't forget.
Remember,
to borrow
from someone utterly unborrowable,
that who you are
is not about who you are with.
baby.

Not yet

I could make
forever
proclamations...
but
I close my lips,
fearing their escape
and the consequences
undetermined.
Thoughts of
floating bubbles
eventually bursting
keep words
caged
inside.

Lie.

you are a very selfish person and a bad mother

plus

I still care about you


e q u a l s


zero

9/27/06

"I'm tired
of being nice to you,"
you hiss,
venom dripping
from your lips
and eyes
hurling
poison darts.
Ugly and vile,
yet somehow
preferable
to the
niceness
you speak of.

happy

rereading my life.
snippets of
love
hate
sorrow
and joy.
seeing that
no matter what,
it goes on.
and
I'm
not
complaining.